Just Going Through the Motions

(Sort of x-posted from my art blog)


It feels like I’ve forgotten how to draw.

I’m trying to put pencil to paper but nothing seems to be coming out right.

I’m not really feeling myself, and I honestly have nothing to update with on here.

I’m doing my hardest to find work but not really had any leads, I’m trying to sort out some volunteering with an animal sanctuary, but as soon as I told my mum about it she started picking holes in my idea as the centre is sort of a bit out of my way, but they got back to me within several hours of me emailing them and actually seem to want people unlike a lot of places near me.

I’m not in the best mood, I applied for a job at a well known UK petstore chain and well. I got rejected, no idea why just got an impersonal, automated ‘you have not been successful’ email. I know its most likley due to the amount of applicants but I feel that I would have been good at said shop and just wonder why I wasn’t picked. It could have been distance as I’m not in the town the shop is located but at the same time I’m not so far away that I can’t get there easily.

I’ve only been job hunting for a week and I already feel dejected and defeated.  That’s not a good sign, I send my CV out, I ask people, I phone, I email and I don’t seem to be getting much back. It’s all very well the Job Centre telling me to look outside of my town but honestly, if I do get an out of town job I probably wouldn’t be able to afford it especially when I’m going for stuff that just meets the mininmum wage bracket.

It also doesn’t help the amount of stuff that wants either experience that I don’t really have or need me to have my own transport. How am I supposed to have that when I can’t afford to learn to drive in the first place?

It’s not much help when you’re constantly running into stuff that points out ‘we’re in a recession’ ‘too many people not enough jobs’ ‘firms are shutting down’

So for now I’m unemployed, and can’t seem to draw or write at this current point in time. I’m fed up, grouchy and maybe feeling a bit stir-crazy.

Hopefully something sorts itself out soon…


Random Encounters of the Brony Kind

Today I randomly encountered a Brony.

My brother and I were out for a walk when we bumped into my brother’s friend who had a friend with him so we said hello and had a quick chat. I was wearing a hoody from a brand called Cupcake Cult and this hoody has a pony on it and the friend of my brother’s friend noticed it and went ‘Brony?’

And I went ‘Yeah…’

And so he went ‘Brohoof?!’ and I returned the favour. And we shortly parted ways, I’ll probably never bump into said guy again but it was pretty awesome nontheless. Especially as I met him at random in the street.

Anyone else ever had an ecounter like that?

Posters as Far as the Eye Can See…


I’ve decided to start putting up some posters onto my walls. I intend to get some more and probably before long there may be wall to wall posters given the chance.  Please ignore the teddy bear picnic wallpaper, I’ve had this room since the age of about 7 and to be fair it could do with a makeover.


The two ponies were done by NeonCrystal of the MLPArena

The elf, is my character Jez and she was drawn by Kat Nicholson aka TheDreamWolf on DeviantART. She’ll be at MCM expo next week to do sketch commissions for charity /shameless plug. 😛

Going Nowhere…

So, a week or so ago I posted about me hopefully getting to UKponycon.

It’s not happening, I asked mum and she said ‘we can’t go there’s too much stuff we have to do’. I’m pretty bummed though as I told her in advance but nope. Not going. No ponycon for me. I was really looking forward to it as well as it was closer to home for me so I hoped I could have stayed there a bit longer this time around.

I’ll have to do something on the day to make up for missing it. Or else I’ll be huddled up in the sad corner crying.

OT: Misadventures in Dog Walking

So, here’s a random entry about tonight’s misadventure.

I have a dog, his name is Barney, he’s six and he looks like this

(minus the party hat of course) Doesn’t he look so cute and sweet and well behaved?

He is a holy terror (or should that be holy terrier terror?)
As proved tonight. I had to take him out for his last walk, I open the door and there is a cat on the other side of the street, and Barney’s reaction is essentially ‘I’M GOING TO KILL YOOOOU’ (He does like cats, so it may have been I WANT TO PLAAAAAAAY!)
And two seconds later, a door opens and one of our neighbours takes out their dog, who Barney sometimes plays with. So Barney starts barking at him, so for about five minutes I’m standing outside my front door trying to stop a small, but powerfully voiced terrier from barking down the street and trying to beat up a cat and possibly the neighbours dog.

I was not impressed.

Poundland, I love you…

Because I am a student (aka complete cheapskate) I often shop in Poundland or 99Pence stores latley. And as I’m trying to replenish my supplies I found the most awesome set of pens in there.
I also needed a new lunchbox, and found this one I think it’s awesome even with the not so subtle knock off vibe.

Gamer Fatigue

I think that’s what I’ve been suffering with over the summer holidays. I’ve had off at least a month from college which in theory should have meant plenty of gaming time but that is not so.

It’s no secret I love to game, I was introduced to computers at a very early age and remember ‘playing’ a few games when I was really young although I didn’t know what I was doing. But I’d say I became more interested in gaming in general a few years back and it’s ‘gone downhill’ from there so to speak.

So, despite the fact I’ve had plenty of free time to pursue my love of gaming I’ve not done much in that way at all. All I’ve done is one playthrough of DA: Awakening and Return to Ostagar.  I have at least one more DA:O playthrough I’d love to do, I have a half completed DA:2 playthrough as well. I was replaying AC: Brotherhood but stopped, I have Final Fantasy 13 starting at me from the shelf as I’ve barley touched it since I got it last year, Project Zero/Fatal Frame is looming over me, so is Sands of Time and, 2008 Prince of Persia, I should probably get back to Fallout New Vegas, Bayonetta is eluding me and so is Devil May Cry 4 and I also have Red Dead Redemption to Atend to as well as the orginal Fable.

Yet, I just can’t seem to bring myself to turn on the XBox put in a game and just play. I don’t feel like it, I can’t think what I should play or I put in a game and get bored in five minutes or get to a battle and go ‘screw it’ and turn the console off.

It’s strange, during term time I’m on the XBox a lot, and I mean a lot but when I actually have free time and could in theory spend most of my day gaming I don’t feel so inclined. I have no idea how to break this cycle, there’s a couple of games I’d like to get and play and gaming on a different console however is not an option currently as both consoles (A Wii and ps2) are hidden somewhere in the basement and getting into there is a challenge befitting of Indiana Jones.

I just hope I overcome this fatigue soon. I kind of miss the Xbox.

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